Wonderful Nonsense

Hello Laura's friends list! This is imwithrebel, Laura's bff from Georgia, here to update you on all of the latest news about Laura! Laura asked me via text message to hack into her account and update her lj buddies as to why she hasn't been online and won't be back again for several days.

You see, Laura got herself knocked up and her baby daddy kicked her out. Due to her fragile condition, she is unsure how she will ever find a way to support herself and the poor baby, though she assures me that getting an Internet connection is the number one priority on her to-do list. She hopes she won't have to resort to desperate measures aka prostitution, but also knows she must act quickly before she and the poor child she is carrying freeze to death since it is always cold in Germany.

Well, it's either that or her internet is broken and they are unsure when it will be fixed again. I'll let you be the judge. ;)

Oh, and any comments you leave to this post will totally make my day, especially if they aren't the typical mushy-gushy "OMGILLMISSYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!!!!" crap.

Let the Laura bashing begin!!!!!!!

It really is totally cool though if you want to leave her the mushy love nonsense about how you can't bear to live a day without her though. It is her journal after all. Plus I'm sure she needs it given her "condition" right now. ;)

Yes, I know Laura will kill me for this when she comes back, but it is totally worth it.

10 reasons why Rebecca is awesome - in no particular order, she'll know why. ;)

1. She wrote 10 reasons why I'm cool that were really sweet and funny. (you know I like to go for the easy stuff :P)

2. I can always come to her with any problems and she'll help me the best she can - which is awesome.

3. Even if I don't tell her, she'll pick up on problems, pull them out of me and help.

4. She'd turn her poo purple for me. Don't ask.

5. For someone with such a limited supply of patience, she's incredibly patient with me. And she has faith in me beyond any good reason.

6. All the days of my life,
All the days of my life,
All the days I owe you!

7. She takes care of me, leads me when I don't know the way and helps me plan my things - aka, she does everything I suck at doing for myself.

8. She gives me Rodney. That automatically makes her cool. ;)

9. There's no one I have more fun and great times with than her. Online or in real life, we always find ways to laugh our asses off, just relax or be the biggest dorks ever.

10. She's the most loyal and protective person I've ever met, to the point that I sometimes feel like I don't deserve it. She's just so stubborn and rather goes down with me than leave me. And even though I wish she'd just save herself then, I love and admire her for it.

And 11. because I have to beat her ;) - she's the sister destiny forgot to give me. Or another one of our favorites: God didn't make us sisters because he knew our parents couldn't handle us together. :P

Happy 2006! May this year become much better than the last one ended. I'm sitting here in my room drinking sparkling wine, chatting with Kerry (yes, still no flying cars or transporters, lol) and wondering where Jas is. I hope she'll come online soon - I don't wanna celebrate the new year without her.

2005 has been great in the sense that I made new friends - all of you guys rock, but I'm especially grateful to have found Rebecca, and one of my biggest hopes for this year is that I'll keep her friendship and support. I know I'm going to need her through all that is awaiting me. Well, what else happened this year? I got my first boyfriend, I lost him again. I once again did pretty well in school, but there have been some "slight" obstacles facing me, too. I got my Iago plushie at my birthday - one of the happiest moments of the last year, I would say. And there's of course SGA - Jas, Kerry and Shiera better bow to me for corrupting them. ;) I will gladly bow to Kirsten in return, lol. SGA has probably brought me many of the happier moments, very often in relation to and with the help of Jas. I think I've grown a lot, too. I've discovered some... new sides of me, some new feelings. Had to endure a lot of bad times too, especially since November. Some of you know what I mean, one more than the others. I don't know where I'd be without you, Jas, and I mean it. Despite all the suckiness that has happened last year, I still say I've gained a lot more than I lost. So all in all, if I sum it up and bottom line this, 2005 wasn't sucky. It was a good year, and I think it was pretty important for my life.

2006 is most likely gonna be huge for me. I just hope I survive it, lol. First, there's graduation. Despite what you all may think, I'm not that confident in my skills and pray to God (figuratively speaking ;)) that I'll do good enough in my finals. I think I'm gonna die of nervousness or something. Then I'll have finished school - wow. Most of my life has been revolving around school - because of my own ambition to be good and to please, because it's been taking up half of nearly every day I went there, and because of my parents ensuring me in the belief that success in school is my only remote guarantee for success in life. Yep, friends have been playing a secondary role there, lol. I didn't go to school because of any friends for most of the time. In the last few years that has changed a little, but not much.
Next I'll hopefully be coming to the US. The planning for this is already scaring me, but I have to try. It has the potential to be so amazing if all goes well. And David Hewlett better attend to the Comic Con. ;)
And then, in October or maybe earlier, I'll be leaving my parents, I'll move out. I'll start my own life. That's so exciting and terrifing at the same time. You have no idea how nervous I am about living on my own, without support. And then I'll go to university - a whole other challenge. I'm so worried about making it there, too. And the planning for this will begin very soon - I told my mum we could do that between Christmas and Spring break, since I don't have many tests in that time. Please cross your fingers for me that everything goes well and that I will get an apartment and a place at university. If this doesn't work out, I'm screwed.

I told you this year is gonna be huge, lol. I'm actually pretty scared. That's because I'm so dependant and insecure. But Jas told me that I'll be fine and I try to believe in that. And I feel like this also offers a lot of opportunities and new situations - not every change is for the bad. I should believe in that more, lol.

When I sat down to write this, I only had a short "Happy New Year!" in mind, lol. Look what happened.